Holding Pattern

I am an extremely impatient person. I hate waiting. Especially when it comes to things that could affect me and/or my family. I don't think I am a control freak, because I know that others can make decisions that can and will affect me and mine. It's waiting for things to happen that causes you to ultimately be at the mercy of other's time frames that drives me crazy. Other people's time frames are not yours and your priorities are not theirs. We are waiting to hear about not one but two potential job opportunites for my husband, but that's what we are doing...waiting. Will we move east or north. I'd love to say west, but that would only leave Hawaii, and well, there's nothing there. At this point I'm willing to take whatever comes in first, regardless of long term ramifications just so I can stop this waiting game. I want to be in charge of my own destiny, so how can I make that happen? How can I take control of my life and/or the situations that could affect me long term. Any ideas?

Stress

Sometimes I think the only thing that keeps me together is stress. Now I have always been a stressed person. I worry about anything and everything. Of course I learned from my doctor many years ago that apparently being stressed has its benefits. I had a permanent injury that could have been much worse had I not suffered from stress. The tension and bunched muscles in my back prevented my back injury from being a major catastrophe. My doctors were happy I was suffered from stress. Stress and caffeine...my two major vices. That being said, sometimes I do worry about really important things. I worry about my family and my friends. I want everyone to be happy and wish I could make it happen for them. I guess my vices could be much worse. I do have other vices but that's for another blog.