It's 1:30

in the morning and I'm still wide awake. I only know of one person who I can relate to at this time, but for some reason that ship has sailed... I totally love my best friend, and wish we c0uld reconnect.. but moving on!! This insomnia thing is something only a few people can relate to. If you are not wide awake in the middle of the morning/late night you have no idea what life is like. I have played Cafe World, Zoo World, Mah jongg tiles, and surfed the internet until nothing appealing came up. I have done school work, mid terms, finals, etc. and still I am awake. I use embedded lights, book lights, etc. to keep my being awake a secret. I have played Nintendo DS, Ipod touch in the darkness to keep my secret. I am a closet insomniac!!! Either I need help or I need to channel my energies!!! I need help!!!

Marathon Posting

Or so it feels... I haven't posted in a while, but I was swamped with school. Amazing how I can go to college credits as of January this year and then end up with 43 units by December. I have six more scheduled for January (what the hell am I thinking???). Spring has another 18 units. Turns our I love college and I love learning... and it doesn't help that not only is it free, I am making money at it as well. I now have enough credits to be job hunting, which is much more challenging. Hopefully, things will work out and I can find a job soon. Education is great, but actually earning money is better!!

Forgot....

This has been a bad year for the kids and their pets... we are now down to zero cats. Since I was 5, that has never happened.... Our bird was found dead at the bottom of his cage by my son (and he was devastated). That same weekend, my son's fish tank was decimated. He lost his frog, his fish, etc. He is down two (I think) two live animals in his tank... one fish and a snail. My daughter has a cat fish and a snail in her tank. It was a really bad weekend.... I am trying to treat it as a positive, as only a mother can do, in saying that it will be easier to move with only a few fish (whatever) to transport... Reality is we are down to just the dog. Lady is a great dog, but so much is riding on her I feel bad for her. She is the only surviving (furry) creature we have left. Lady, I love you, and by the way you need to life for the next 20+ years so my children don't have issues.... No worries, I'm sure she can do it!

Catching Up

Where has the time gone since my last post...??? I have been swamped with school. Six classes plus one of my husband's. I can't post on FB because people know me there. I have six full classes and I am in full control of one of my husband's classes... Anyway, Saturday is my last final for the semester and I'm done for a whopping two weeks. Yeah... dumb me signed up for 2 winter classes. Two full semester classes smushed into 4 weeks. Dumb!!! One psychology class and philosophy. We'll see what happens. Spring starts January 31st and it's all downhill. Well, for now. What's frustrating is that I am 3 classes short for my Accounting degree. They require on campus attendance and I can't get there. So, if I switch majors I will be 2 classes short of a Psychology degree. I need to take statistics, but I need to back into it through math and I since this is an AA degree, I need communications. So, for a total of 5 classes, I am short on two AA/AS degrees. Story of my life - day late and a dollar short.

On the other hand, my daughter is now 5. According to her she loves being 5. I think she is more like 15, but that is another story. She is so into Jonas brothers, Justin Bieber, etc. What happened to The Wiggles, and Imagination Movers??? She seems to have skipped a few years.

My son is in high school. Out of 6 classes he has 3 As, 2 Bs and 1 C. I feel bad because the one C is my fault. It is for science and he is behind on 2 labs. I don't have a balloon or a magnet so he can complete 2 labs. Note to self.... find those two items. Tomorrow is his last day before winter break so hopefully we can complete those two labs and he can get his grade up.

Still job hunting. Note to self: Don't work for psycho people!!!

Can't believe how far I've come education wise in such a short amount of time. I need to figure out how to take these few classes so I can wrap this up at the community college level and move on!! 3 for accounting/2 for psychology...

Vacation in January... and have I told you all how tired I am of my husband getting ripped off from so-called friends..... Lost $5000, but that's another story. We are stuck between keeping the cruise and needing the money to drive down plus tips, etc. on the ship or canceling and losing $1500. Tips alone will be about $350. Note to self... apply for a cruise ship!!

Last... I feel so bad for friends of ours. Their son flaked and moved out while they were gone. At 18, he felt he knew it all and bailed. No phone call, no nothing.... Amy, I feel so bad for you!!!

With two free weeks, maybe I can get caught up.... To those I've injured throughout life.... I am so sorry! I am learning how to be more compassionate and understanding!!! Your life is not mine and is yours to live on your own! My role is spectator only....