Happiness

Hmmmm. what do address....
My sister keeps telling me she wishes me happiness. Of cours, I am happy. But it's all relative....
I live in a bedroom with two children and a dog, The lack of privacy alone creates its ow issues... lol.
Everything we own is either in a storage unit or is in our bedroom. Our whole lives -the 4 of us-so I don't know where we go from there...
That aside.... my happiness is pretty much based on my children's happiness. My son is internalizing his issues so it is difficult to get to where he is at. So far he seems to be ok as long as he is with us. My daughter is bouncing off the walls and is climbing them as well. Turn out it doesn't appear she is doing as well as the son. With her and her father clashing she really has no where to turn. I wish I knew what to do do. I am at a loss. We have had multiple conversations as to "what would you do if", but well, although this issue was brought up in the general, it was not brought up in the "vague" it creates a problem. If I have a road B at lead I'd have some sort of route..... or it could die... I just wish I knew what do it...
But it explains my lack of romance......

Too Many Blogs

So I inadvertently logged out of this email and into another. What was saved and what is blogged I have no idea... lol. Too much technology for me..... Hopefully I can breathe and not have someone looking over my shoulder... that is what I'd like. If it's on this blog great... if not, guess I'd better find something else.....

Clarifying

Life.... I totally wish I knew what to do. I am so glad hubby doesn't remember I have a blog...
He has become very controlling lately.. monitoring my emails, cell phone calls, etc. Fortunately, I have been able to have some back door accounts...
Mexicans are another breed entirely My friend, Alice, and I have compared notes and we have come to the realization that Mexican males are possessive, short-tempered, and easily aggravated. That's the short version....
My hubby now monitors my calls, emails, etc. I don't want to think it's because he's insecure. I just feel he's bored. Mexican males are ultra macho. So when they are not working they seem to the the other extreme -insecure.
fyi--- that drives my crazy.....
I don't need someone looking over my shoulder every time I get an email, phone call or text. I am a fully functioning adult and can manage my own stuff just fine thank you very much.


So, my dear sister, you may realize why I am not realizing my quota...lol. I've aggravated.....

Blogging

Yes, I wish I was more up to date. Problem is I can only do this when hubby is asleep..... Yeah, my sister and I sooo need to talk... lol

So, new and interesting....
Nothing new... but I have been meaning to blog about the world.
We have been following the story of Sandra Cantu. I feel absolutely horrible for her. My son has been following her story and makes us pause every time it comes on the news. To catch up, she is an adorable 8 year old little girl who vanished in Tracy. Just this week her body turned up in some kind of suitcase in a ditch somewhere. My 10 year old saw the story from the beginning when she first disappeared. Every time the news came on we had to stop and listen to the story of her disappearance. Now, I try not to be pessimistic and I was absolutely hoping for the best, but when the news revealed that her body was discovered I was not shocked. What does disturb me is that there are people out there who can do horrific things to innocent children. She is an absolutely adorable 8 year old child and someone killed her. That bothers me. Those kinds of things make me cry. Not only for her and her family, but also to have to explain the mean people who exist in the world to my innocent 10 year old. I cry when I think about her innocence being taken away and for the pain her family is going through. No, I don't live near Tracy, but as a mother, what her parents must be going through is just horrific. How can someone do such a horrific thing to such an innocent girl??? It boggles the mind. Beyond that, from what we've heard from the news is many children from the area are traumatized. Go figure??? My 10 year old has been following the story with great interest and I am at a loss as to what to tell him. Trusting in people will get you nowhere apparently. Don't go outside alone ever. My 3 year old has learned how to open the front door by herself, and boy am I freaked out. Her short leash just got shorter.

Respect

Well, it hasn't even been 24 hours back and I am hating life at my parents. It started last night... first they pump my son for info as to what we did, where we went, and who we saw while visiting Southern California. Then they go back to their controlling ways. My son is homeschooled through a school district in Simi Valley, but we live in the Milpitas School District boundary. So, of course, their vacations are entirely different. My mother will not let my son outside of the house before 3:00 on a school day because, well, everyone else is in school. He was talking about missing his friends and how happy he was to be with them and she told him he needs to widen out and make older friends. Hello, he's crazy about his aunt who is older than him... But I digress. She said next week he'll have that opportunity. She's making plans for him, much to his great dismay. Now, I know the school up here is out for winter break, but he does not have off until April. But, because it's her idea, it's totally different. I told her that he has school next week, but she said it doesn't matter, he can do it any time. Excuse me!!?? I told my husband and he told me not to overreact. To me, it's a matter of respecting me as his mother, especially when my son is pleading with me to not make him go with her. If I say he has school, which, in fact, he does, that should be that. Not a "well, it's home school so it doesn't matter". I am so irritated. Yes, he's ahead, but they don't know that. I need to make some plans for next week in a big hurry....

Chicken Soup

I have to tell you, I am rather sick of chicken soup. We have all been sick so much in the last couple months that I made the third batch yesterday. Did I want some? Heck NO! But, it's soothing and makes you feel good. On a positive note is also is low fat and low calorie. But I am seriously sick of it. Got to get better soon so I can have something that tastes.... different than chicken soup.

Children - Found

I found my children. Unfortunately, it was only for 5 days. I have been living with their "shells" for several months, but their real personalities came out. We talked as a family and came to understand that we didn't know how much they hated living with their grandparents. Not only do they have to answer to two sets of parents, one set is extremely strict and rigid in their thinking. But, take them out of that environment and they totally blossomed. My daughter smiled, laughed, and yes, even giggled. She went to everybody and gave hugs and kisses. She even, gasp, initiated a hug to her brother. And he, surprisingly enough, hugged her back. Now that we understand their frustration now it's up to us as the parents, to find a way to bring their personalities back. The personalities quickly retreated as we made the return drive back. So, I have to now let my fingers do the walking and find jobs quickly so we can get the heck out of here. Something has to give and it can't be the kids. Childhood is over so quickly that it is important that they are able to look back and have happy memories. So here's to good memories for everyone. For me... it's busy, busy, busy... happy job hunting.